Lies (drabble)

 back!! o meu presenti de natal~~


Title: Lies
Beta: szani
Genre: Romance, Angst
Pairing: Sho X ____ (need to read to find out xD)
Rating: PG
Summary: Lies, they were all lies.
Disclaimer: As always, i don't own them.
A/N: Merry X'mas xD

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Lies, they were all lies… All the promises you had made were in vain. You said you would be with me till the day we became old and you promised you wouldn’t die before me. But you lied. You said you would make me happy, you liar. But where are you?

Days have become so cold that I can’t help but only stare out of my window, the snow slowing falling down on the street. It bugs me. Every snow flake that lands on the ground and becomes grey makes me remember how dirty I am. It pains me to watch families pass by, laughing at silliest things ever. What is so funny? Why I can’t laugh too? Why aren’t you here to make me happy?

You are a liar.

You always made me believe that someday we would be free, no more suspicious stares and gossips. You taught me what freedom means yet you locked me within your hands. Every time you came you gave me hope, the hope that I’ve long ago forgotten.

As I walked down the street I noticed it was decorated with Christmas lights. I remember that time when you showed me the apartment located in the neighborhood. The one you had bought me. It was around Christmas too. You smiled from ear to ear and offered me a place to stay. But the truth was you just wanted to know where I am so you can easily track me. You are a liar. The worst I‘ve ever seen.

I saw you and your family a few times… I can picture you daughter laughing while holding your and your wife’s hands. She was very proud of you. And your wife…was one of the nicest people ever. Yet you betrayed her… You dirtied me with your hands and hopes.

Sometimes I wonder who is guiltier here? You or me? Or both? Everytime I remember you daughter smiling, my heart breaks a little. Where are you when I need you the most?

I’m nothing but a coward. I can’t face my troubles neither run away from you. Because what I feel for you is so deep that I can’t leave or push you away. Your smile is my sun and your warmth is my energy.

It’s snowing again and I am standing alone in this silent night. I wish…no I can’t be so selfish, because you weren’t mine even from the very beginning.

I can hear the bells. It’s December 25th. Happy Christmas, Masaki.

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A/N 2: This was some challenge i did to myself. I read Ano hi no Christmas lyrics once and then took death note manga and randomly opened a page and the first thing i read will be what i should write xD... did it work?