My Oasis (one-shot)

hum....criei a minha primeira historia em ingles...nao verdade não sei se devo postar aqui....you know...quando escrevi inconscientemente mete os nomes dos membros la (ou nao)... just you know....a história nao tem nada de coisa de gay...pensa assim: é unisexo!! LOOL agora a serio, esta deve a unica obra que quero que o pessoal leia...é um fanfic!! o que quero expor aqui nao é o facto do casal ser hetero/gay ou o que quiseres pensar, mas sim OS PROBLEMAS DE COMUNICACAO E FALTA DE SEGURANÇA ENTRE AS RELAÇÕES

desde que é danger postar aqui o link do post original vai ficar aqui....

Title: My oasis
Author: me~~
Beta: szani (truly arigatou!!)
Summary: Our relationship doesn't have its beginning. We are not friends neither lovers. A relationship hard to explain by words but easy to understand by feelings.
Disclaimer: english isn't my first language! first time wrote something! and i wish i'm jonnhy-san hehe

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If I could identify my life with anything, it would be something like bag with nothing inside. A bag that doesn't contain relationships, responsibilities and memories.


I love my work, because it is ideal for people like me, cold by nature. I’m a flight steward, spending more time in planes than at home, well… that's if I had one. Traveling a lot and never staying in the same place for too long resulted in not having to carry many things with me. Since I’m a person that doesn’t have good relations, all the people I keep contact with are my coworkers and ... and my special friend.


Sometimes I wonder why my coworkers have their baggages so full. Full of personal items like their familiy’s photos, wife’s, husband’s, daughter’s, son’s, even the dog’s. Shun said that because I'm a cold person, I will never ever understand it. But in fact I think objects like photos and pictures are just mere things that make us remember events that maybe aren't significant enough for our brains to save. To create memories.


People say I'm very carefree and, although they don’t tell me that face to face, I know they think I'm the loneliest person in the world. I don’t care. They have the right to think whatever they want to and I live my life as I wish. And no, I'm not frustrated with lack of private life or sex.


Sho Sakurai is a journalist of a whatever channel, and hence, he is always traveling. I met him during one of his flights from one place to another (and yes, it was while I was working). From the first time I saw him I knew he was the best choice for me. Hard to resist, pure (maybe not too much), sexy and smart (not to mention that I didn’t want this oasis to be destroyed by dirty hands, like those belonging to the asshole sitting on his left during the flight).


I met him when I was 25 years old and he was 26. We knew from the very beginning that our relationship wasn’t what one could or wanted to have, but since we had the same common goal - being able to forget about life, work, problems in mere hours spent together – we thought it was the best choice.


Sho never told me much about his life. Sooner or later I realized that he has one or more relationships, nothing out of the standard, but I don't care much about it. Why? Because in return I never tell him things about my life and he gives me freedom to do whatever I want to. Our relationship doesn't have its beginning. We are not friends neither lovers. A relationship hard to explain by words but easy to understand by feelings.


But you know what, Sho? Sometimes when I see older couples during the flights, the husband embracing his wife to keep her warm, the wife filling her husband’s cup with wine after noticing it's almost empty, it makes me remember I am a person with no relations,  so I can't do anything but stare at them feeling jealous and wonder if someday I would be able to do the same to someone ... someone like you...

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Sho woke up and noticed the empty space beside him. At first he thought his partners of the night left again for another day of work. It disappointed him and made him regret not noticing anything when he was sleeping. Shutting his eyes he kept thinking that the next time he would definitively say everything that was locked in his heart. He reopened them when he heard water running in the bathroom of the hotel room he was staying in.


Happy to have found his partner in the bathtub full of rose petals, he smiled.


"What are you doing with the roses? They are expensive, you know. "


"I was just doing them a favor. Before they die completely, I give them an utility. "said Jun as he looked at the journalist who was now joining him.

Ever since the night Sho met Jun, he knew that something has been disturbing his partner's mind. Hurting him, making him so absent and quiet. Not being able to watch his troubled expression or stand his absentminded aura any longer, Sho embraced Jun slowly.


"What happened?"


"Nothing special… A day full of work. Customers were more demanding than normally and made our life a hell, I guess.


"Matsumoto-sama never gets discouraged just by mere clients..."


After noticing Jun wouldn't give him an answer anytime soon, Sho decided to speak again.

"Jun, sometimes I really want to know your thoughts ...about you ...me ... us…Sometimes I just want to--"


Sho couldn’t finish his sentence. Jun started shaking and a few moments later Sho felt some hot drops fall on his arms. Arms which were now protecting Jun from cold, from the world.


"Jun ...?" Sho whispered panicking, not knowing what was happening, thinking that maybe he shouldn’t have said what he said. But his thoughts were interrupted when he heard Jun’s voice.


"I know it was me who said we wouldn’t have any special relationship and I know my pride hurt you many times…. My pride, being able to live my life as I want to, without responsibilities, without relationships, is so big that it doesn’t allow me see what is important to me…. I see couples passing me by, and sometimes I just can’t smile because I envy them… because I feel angry just looking at them…as…as if I wanted to do everything to see them apart, see them as alone as I am. I’m a cruel person, right?... "Jun laughed at his miserable statement, crying.


"You aren’t ..."


"…Years are passing and we are becoming older. Right now I'm 30 and you're 31… Sho ... I was thinking ...someday ... someday, when I get tired of traveling, smiling and serving the passengers, ... Can I stay with you? Can you embrace me and keep me warm and can I pour more wine into your glass when it becomes empty? "


Sho was amazed. Astonished by his companion's confession, he smiled. He smiled because finally he could see thought his lover’s heart.

While turning Jun’s body to look at him face to face, eyes to eyes, smile facing tears, Sho said "Of course you can! Do you know how important you've became for me? Only when I’m with you I can laugh or cry when I feel like doing it. Only when I’m with you I can switch off and forget about all the events in the society, in the world. Only when I’m with you, my oasis. "

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A/N: so...it was bad? sorry for my dumb english but szani is helping me a lot!!! one more time szani thank you so much!!!